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I AM A CONTAINER III
SS 2024
SS 2024
I AM A CONTAINER III
I am a container, containing everything about me – my body, my gender, my identity.
I am a container, containing everything about me – my body, my gender, my identity.
SS24 COLLECTION
I am a container that carries everything about me – my body, gender, and identity. It is through them that I am formed.
In this new seasoncollection, I will delve into and expand my exploration of self. I'll divide the personal journey into three parts, the first journey being about doubting and exploring my own body until finally embracing this intricate process, which will envelop my body from concealment to liberation.
Gender and personal identity are not innate but continually constructed within a social environment. I exist within the realms of society, history, and culture, continuously absorbing and, in turn, utilizing them to generate, store, and construct myself in my unique language. Through this process, I express my perceptions and insights about the world.
In the second phase, as the surrounding environment and culture evolved, I realized that my journey of self-exploration had entered a new stage. I began exploring new forms of self-expression and engaged in the ongoing 'Gender Performance.'
However, I couldn't have the courage to reveal my true preferences to my family. So, every time I left home and get into the outside, I had to use the 'emergency access' to change my clothes. During this process, I often hurriedly swapped outfits, everything jumbled together, with no time to think. Men's suits mixed with women's underwear and stockings, or various garments worn in unusual combinations. With this chaos, I found my own order, and I felt that the 'emergency access' had become my route to self-discovery.
In this moment, I experienced a profound sense of self-renewal, yet I realized that I couldn't openly confront this gray area under the constraints of traditional culture.
In the third stage, after arriving in London, I underwent a process of redefining and affirming my self-awareness and identity. Initially, I believed that I was confined to existing within two binary options, where I had to either conform to or hide my innate gender characteristics, all within the framework of a binary gender transition. This sometimes left me feeling trapped and constantly questioning whether my gender performance was appropriate from various perspectives.
However, as I continued to immerse myself in diverse social and cultural environments and explored further, I realized that my identity was far more diverse than I had initially thought. It could be shaped by my own imagination and creation, unrestricted by just one or two possibilities but open to a multitude. (I am who I am, in any form, it's still me.)
This also stems from the different states presented by my introspection from multiple perspectives, shifting from observer to the observed, and back to the subject itself . I no longer simply view myself from a self-centered perspective, but instead, I position myself within the larger context.
Flowery He，
23. 02. 2024